On the Verge

Tomorrow I embark on my first solo vacation. I have no idea what it will feel like, but I am looking forward to it. The Therapist reminded me that because Philip and I went to this resort together I will probably have moments when I miss him pretty badly. But since I miss him badly most of the time, I think it will be ok–nothing out of the ordinary. Mostly I’m looking forward to being away, having some genuine quiet time and maybe trying to relax. I’ve been so stressed out about mom, worried about her health and safety, that I’m coming unraveled. The Therapist pointed out (how does he manage to be right and logical all the time? Oh yeah: that’s why I talk to him.) that there’s no reason to worry and that it won’t do me or her any good. She’s got support systems in place, and besides, bad things can happen whether I’m home or not. So I will go, have a good and relaxing time, and step a little bit out of my comfort zone.